I would like to reach out to the bfs family and see if I can get some more Reassurance..

I've been holding off writing you this week because I don't want to really bother you but you had such insight and were so helpful.. I've been going down hill this week bad. My anxiety and panic is through the roof I keep looking at my left arm which feels very funny to me And weak, i can lift my arms over my head and ive been going to the gym every other day, tredmill and weights, my left shoulder feels weak and when I work out left arm shakes some when lifting weights, my hand and wrist Look atrophied. I still having whole body Fasciculations but now as of yesterday feel my arch of my feet are going to cramp up. I don't actually get the cramp but feel like its just about to go into one. Is that silly ? Also this morning my left hand near the middle Knuckle felt like it was going into a cramp like feeling, my heart dropped and I've been shaking Literally since then. Also now in my left leg I get like this vibration buzzing feeling on outside of my calf. Having some slurred speech, Tongue has a stingy like feeling and feels swollen to me at times. I drink a lot of water ( to see if I choke) and feel after I drink I have a little bit that stays In throat and I have to clear or give a little cough. Also have this lump like feeling in my throat a lot of the time. I take Calcium and magnesium with vitamin D supplements as well .
I believe I'm close to having a nervous breakdown. Also. My left arm muscles are always sore from working out and my right arm has got over that part when you start to workout again ( three weeks ). Today's is my 23rd Anniversary, And all I keep thinking about is leaving my family in such disarray.. I can barely type my hands are shaking. I don't know what to do. I'm so scared.
Thank you for listening to me.
B