I dont know why i post it here, realy i dont know.
To read the topics of this board everytime helped me and so whant to say THANKS to this wonderfull community!
I lost everything right know. In a circle of fear, trying to hold my head up.....life hit with full force.
The woman i love, we married 8 years ago, we get two lovely kids, a boy...5 years old and a girl 7 years old. I love all three from the bottom of my heart. A year ago my wife told me she need some time to think about her life. I was shocked because the family was the most important thing in my life.....i fight with myself and say to me....Florian! Be a friend....she need her time, give her what she need. So i rented a little home and visit my family every day. All tihs times we had a good time together and i was feeling that we all feel the same. My wife laughed with me and everything was fine.....i thougt.
Now....i talked about come together again....she told me there is a man and she felt for him what she felt for me, as we come together for years.
So....iam broken....sitting here....twitch from head to toe....swallow not real properly since 2 month....thinking about to end my life.
I know, it is not fair to write here my about my pain....but please dont be angry...i dont now where to go right now.
I lost all....and i want to say to you all: Life your life, kiss you loved ones, dont let the bfs-stuff eat your preciuos time! End will come alone...one day, nobody knows when....but until this day do what your heart say.
Thanks for patience and for all your help..........
Florian