Did not got any picture, but look, the issue with the OCD and anxiety disorders is that you want an impossible thing: an external push or something equivalent to bring you back to stable and peaceful condition.
nope. this is impossible. this is one way road - external issues, like you relationships broken (if I understoor right) and other things one by one brought you to actual quite miserable and broken state, but the issue with the mood disorders is that you have to apply your own efforts to get stability back. The only proper external help would be acounseling not reassurance.
I'll tell you why. Becasue stress (regardless to the reasons), if prolonged, changes your brain chemisrty and neural pathways in a way that major part of information you get from outside is routed not to the frontal lobes cortex as usually but to a brain structure called amygdala. This is an ancient part of the brain used to sream ALARM! ALARM! - and that is why you behave so strange and so self-destructive (open jars, seek for atrophy in perfectly healthy hands, can not hink about anything else but your doom etc.).
This hyperexcited amygdala was confirmed in people like you and me by modernt visualisation methods so it is known for sure. Physical manifestation of that is incredibly decreased ability to think rationally. Well you still can do that but your emotional part is siezed by amygdala and rational thoughts can not lower its excitation level. Your inner PLC is a bit overheated.
The only way is to cool down. Sometimes people can do that by themselves, but not always. Natural way is to keep a strict (I mean really STRICT) schedule for a few weeks - especially in what comes to sleeping not less than 8 hours per day by whatever means (including sleeping aids), decreasing caffeine, energy drinks, other suppelements, eating more or less healthy (no diets as diet is a stress too, and emotional stress too), avoiding any medical internet searches (and fighting emotional disocfort of not being able to feed your crying and screaming amygdala), applying any method (except heavy strikes in the head) to calm down (pray, meditation, yoga, CBT, counting ships, warm bath), having some walks before the bedtime, etc.
Telling others that you have a mood disorder and are practically sick sometimes also helps. Sometimes people around demand too much of us

) and if you just tell then you are in rebuilding process and 'please do not disturb' may be helpful. And every time when your anxiety would demand to do a self-test or measure a limb or think that you are dying from ALS at your 22 - you would have to remind yourself that you are on the STRICT SCHEDULE. Give yourself 4 weeks at least - and it is quite possible that at the end of that period you would be pretty unable to think so much about your doom anyway.
If the schedule and self-limitaion of this kind does not help, then you definitely need a professional psychological help, including counseling and medication. I went through this all and I can say it really helps.